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[dream_labyrinth]

It's Monday. On Wednesday, I have the interview.
This afternoon I need to go to the library and read through the latest issues of some library journals. I need to browse through the library's homepage a few more times (I already did twice, at least, but I can't really remember things.) and read the ad again to prepare some questions I want to ask.
I need to decide what to wear and gather the things I want to take with me.

I'm getting nervous. But it isn't the sort of nervosity everybody can clearly see. My hands aren't shaking, I don't drop everything I pick up, I don't run around my room.
It's all inside of me. The rational me keeps saying that it will be alright. It is just an interview. The people I need to talk with are probably just as nervous as I am. They don't expect me to be perfect and they don't expect me to know everything.
The not-so-rational me, unfortunately, has the louder voice.
What if it's not going to be alright? If I blow that chance, how much longer will I have to be unemployed? Will they think I'm stupid?

I am not very good at guessing what people think about me. Usually, being an optimist (even though I prefer to disguise as a cynical pessimist), I think they're probably liking me. But when I start doubting that, I'll be lost.
I need to feel people like me, otherwise I break down and become a complete mess.

When I'm very nervous in an exam-type situation, I start speaking rather softly. And in any situation I tend not to finish my sentences.Either habit is not very good for an interview.

All I can do is prepare as good as possible and do my best. If that doesn't get me the job, then it's probably better for me.

Comments

[call-me-harmony.livejournal.com]

Good luck with the interview. I'll be sending lots of positive energy your way if it's welcome.

[dream-labyrinth.livejournal.com]

Thank you, definitely. I'll need any help I can get. :-)

[tuva.livejournal.com]

I am 100% sure you'll do well, but as an extra caution, I'll be sendings loads of positive wibes your way! ;D

I think we both need to lower the pressure on ourselves and stop being so nervous, though I wish it was easier done than said...

But really, if you've prepared well and try to be rational, I think it's going to go completely alright! :)

I'll be thinking about you! *hugs*

[dream-labyrinth.livejournal.com]

Thank you. :-)

[angharad.livejournal.com]

Mentally practice answering the obvious questions, and visualize doing well? That way, you'll have a "good picture" in mind to enact when you get there. Because maybe stewing in lots of failure worries will make you freeze up when you get there.

[dream-labyrinth.livejournal.com]

I'm trying.
I juts hope that it's going to be similar to oral exams and once I sit there and have people ask me questions, I'll try my best and worry afterwards.

[masochisticzoe.livejournal.com]

Oooh, I hate that kind of butterflies, where your stomach feels all shaky and you psych yourself out and can't fall asleep from worrying too much about details that are probably all in your head anyway.

It's hard to listen to this advice but don't sweat it, you'll do as well as you need to, remember to breathe and smile and wear comfortable shoes. Good luck!

[dream-labyrinth.livejournal.com]

Thanks. Especially for the shoe advice. ;-)