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Oct. 11th, 2004 12:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dream_labyrinthIt's Monday. On Wednesday, I have the interview.
This afternoon I need to go to the library and read through the latest issues of some library journals. I need to browse through the library's homepage a few more times (I already did twice, at least, but I can't really remember things.) and read the ad again to prepare some questions I want to ask.
I need to decide what to wear and gather the things I want to take with me.
I'm getting nervous. But it isn't the sort of nervosity everybody can clearly see. My hands aren't shaking, I don't drop everything I pick up, I don't run around my room.
It's all inside of me. The rational me keeps saying that it will be alright. It is just an interview. The people I need to talk with are probably just as nervous as I am. They don't expect me to be perfect and they don't expect me to know everything.
The not-so-rational me, unfortunately, has the louder voice.
What if it's not going to be alright? If I blow that chance, how much longer will I have to be unemployed? Will they think I'm stupid?
I am not very good at guessing what people think about me. Usually, being an optimist (even though I prefer to disguise as a cynical pessimist), I think they're probably liking me. But when I start doubting that, I'll be lost.
I need to feel people like me, otherwise I break down and become a complete mess.
When I'm very nervous in an exam-type situation, I start speaking rather softly. And in any situation I tend not to finish my sentences.Either habit is not very good for an interview.
All I can do is prepare as good as possible and do my best. If that doesn't get me the job, then it's probably better for me.
This afternoon I need to go to the library and read through the latest issues of some library journals. I need to browse through the library's homepage a few more times (I already did twice, at least, but I can't really remember things.) and read the ad again to prepare some questions I want to ask.
I need to decide what to wear and gather the things I want to take with me.
I'm getting nervous. But it isn't the sort of nervosity everybody can clearly see. My hands aren't shaking, I don't drop everything I pick up, I don't run around my room.
It's all inside of me. The rational me keeps saying that it will be alright. It is just an interview. The people I need to talk with are probably just as nervous as I am. They don't expect me to be perfect and they don't expect me to know everything.
The not-so-rational me, unfortunately, has the louder voice.
What if it's not going to be alright? If I blow that chance, how much longer will I have to be unemployed? Will they think I'm stupid?
I am not very good at guessing what people think about me. Usually, being an optimist (even though I prefer to disguise as a cynical pessimist), I think they're probably liking me. But when I start doubting that, I'll be lost.
I need to feel people like me, otherwise I break down and become a complete mess.
When I'm very nervous in an exam-type situation, I start speaking rather softly. And in any situation I tend not to finish my sentences.Either habit is not very good for an interview.
All I can do is prepare as good as possible and do my best. If that doesn't get me the job, then it's probably better for me.
