writing pains
Oct. 3rd, 2004 10:37 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dream_labyrinthI suppose a writer's block is nothing completely unusual. I have had times when I wasn't inspired at all.
The thing to do then would be not to write.
I did, anyway.
I wrote a story and it ended up pretty uninspired and pointless.
What was interesting about it is that it actually has made me sick to think about it, and I can't stop thinking about it. And I mean sick. I am a little dizzy, and I didn't feel like eating anything today, and there's a lump in my throat.
I'd never imagine that something like a story could affect me so, not the contents but the quality of the story.
I got some very nice comments from readers, but that doesn't really make me feel a whole lot better. Because I think I could have done better. I failed myself, my own goals and my expectations in myself.
I was trying hard to decide whether or not I should just go ahead and delete the story and pretend i never happened, but that doesn't seem honest.
So I have left it, and keep it in the back of my mind as a "warning".
I wrote it to kill time, and so it is a story to kill time "for those who like it better dead". And I don't even remember who said that, I just know it was said about a book.
The thing to do then would be not to write.
I did, anyway.
I wrote a story and it ended up pretty uninspired and pointless.
What was interesting about it is that it actually has made me sick to think about it, and I can't stop thinking about it. And I mean sick. I am a little dizzy, and I didn't feel like eating anything today, and there's a lump in my throat.
I'd never imagine that something like a story could affect me so, not the contents but the quality of the story.
I got some very nice comments from readers, but that doesn't really make me feel a whole lot better. Because I think I could have done better. I failed myself, my own goals and my expectations in myself.
I was trying hard to decide whether or not I should just go ahead and delete the story and pretend i never happened, but that doesn't seem honest.
So I have left it, and keep it in the back of my mind as a "warning".
I wrote it to kill time, and so it is a story to kill time "for those who like it better dead". And I don't even remember who said that, I just know it was said about a book.
