I'm Slytherdor! - and lack self-control
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You scored 42% Order/Chaos, and 47% Moral/Rational
Slytherdor
Chaotic with a moral/rational split. Outside rules and regulations bug you, but how you determine conduct for yourself depends - you have a dose of self interest in you, but you've also got a streak of solid morality. Your strengths arise from being able to see past strict rules, but this also can be a weakness when people don't know if they can trust you to follow procedure and aren't sure for what reasons you might deviate.
http://www.helloquizzy.com/results/the-sorting-hat-test6/?fromCGI=1&var_Order=-1&var_Morality=-1
In other news, a post by a friend made me evaluate my progress on the weight / figure subject.
On average, in 2008 I worked out at least three times a week. Some times I didn't do much, like during my vacation, but I also rode the bike to work for months and did daily workouts some months.
I've done a mix of cardio and weight-lifting, with more weight-lifting towards the end of the year.
Approximately in July, I started weighing myself in the morning and evening and recording the weight. I started out with 66 kg after coming back from the US. For most of August, September and October, as well as most of November, my weight was somewhere between 63 and 65 kg. In November and December, I was between 64 and 66 kg, and even up to 68 briefly in December.
One reason definitely is that I didn't adhere to my food rules as strictly as I should have. On the other hand, I started the weight-lifting in November and did build muscle in those two months.
So, according to my scale, I have not made any progress in the past year. Rather the opposite, I have gained weight.
However, I see a distinct change in my figure. My arms and legs are more muscular, my shoulders are shaped much better than before (even though my upper back and shoulder muscles still aren't strong enough for me to manage a pull-up...), and I've increased the weight for some exercises.
There's still room to move. I should be lighter than I am.
On the other hand, working out six times a week tired me physically as much as mentally, not to mention the complete lack of social life that came with it. Three or four times a week is a lot more reasonable, and will still see progress if I watch my eating habits.
As for eating, I kept a food diary and wrote down every bite I ate for several weeks. I actually weighed everything before eating it, from an apple to a piece of chocolate.
Supposedly, this would have helped me pay attention to my eating and chose only healthy foods.
In reality, even though I felt bad about eating a whole package of chocolate cookies or some other unhealthy food rich in calories, it never actually stopped me from eating. Whatever trick there is to discipline myself, this is not it.
That really is my main problem with dieting: the problem is very much in my head. I remember some days at work when I ate cookies until I was actually feeling sick, and still the next time I passed the cookie bowl, I took another. I made a deal with myself not to eat more than a certain amount, or not before a certain time, or only when somebody else took one, and I broke every single one of them. I go past the kitchen and tell myself "you will not eat anything", and stop and eat something.
My mind is sabotaging me completely. That is why I am reluctant to pay money for getting a diet plan custom tailored. My problem is not that I don't know what I should eat. My problem is not eating anything else.
In that way, I'm more a case for a psychologist than a nutriotionist. I know a whole lot about which foods are healthy and why, and which foods should be avoided. The knowledge isn't helping.
So if I have any resolutions for the new year, it is to finally develop the discipline I need and to stop sabotaging my own efforts.
You scored 42% Order/Chaos, and 47% Moral/Rational
Slytherdor
Chaotic with a moral/rational split. Outside rules and regulations bug you, but how you determine conduct for yourself depends - you have a dose of self interest in you, but you've also got a streak of solid morality. Your strengths arise from being able to see past strict rules, but this also can be a weakness when people don't know if they can trust you to follow procedure and aren't sure for what reasons you might deviate.
http://www.helloquizzy.com/results/the-sorting-hat-test6/?fromCGI=1&var_Order=-1&var_Morality=-1
In other news, a post by a friend made me evaluate my progress on the weight / figure subject.
On average, in 2008 I worked out at least three times a week. Some times I didn't do much, like during my vacation, but I also rode the bike to work for months and did daily workouts some months.
I've done a mix of cardio and weight-lifting, with more weight-lifting towards the end of the year.
Approximately in July, I started weighing myself in the morning and evening and recording the weight. I started out with 66 kg after coming back from the US. For most of August, September and October, as well as most of November, my weight was somewhere between 63 and 65 kg. In November and December, I was between 64 and 66 kg, and even up to 68 briefly in December.
One reason definitely is that I didn't adhere to my food rules as strictly as I should have. On the other hand, I started the weight-lifting in November and did build muscle in those two months.
So, according to my scale, I have not made any progress in the past year. Rather the opposite, I have gained weight.
However, I see a distinct change in my figure. My arms and legs are more muscular, my shoulders are shaped much better than before (even though my upper back and shoulder muscles still aren't strong enough for me to manage a pull-up...), and I've increased the weight for some exercises.
There's still room to move. I should be lighter than I am.
On the other hand, working out six times a week tired me physically as much as mentally, not to mention the complete lack of social life that came with it. Three or four times a week is a lot more reasonable, and will still see progress if I watch my eating habits.
As for eating, I kept a food diary and wrote down every bite I ate for several weeks. I actually weighed everything before eating it, from an apple to a piece of chocolate.
Supposedly, this would have helped me pay attention to my eating and chose only healthy foods.
In reality, even though I felt bad about eating a whole package of chocolate cookies or some other unhealthy food rich in calories, it never actually stopped me from eating. Whatever trick there is to discipline myself, this is not it.
That really is my main problem with dieting: the problem is very much in my head. I remember some days at work when I ate cookies until I was actually feeling sick, and still the next time I passed the cookie bowl, I took another. I made a deal with myself not to eat more than a certain amount, or not before a certain time, or only when somebody else took one, and I broke every single one of them. I go past the kitchen and tell myself "you will not eat anything", and stop and eat something.
My mind is sabotaging me completely. That is why I am reluctant to pay money for getting a diet plan custom tailored. My problem is not that I don't know what I should eat. My problem is not eating anything else.
In that way, I'm more a case for a psychologist than a nutriotionist. I know a whole lot about which foods are healthy and why, and which foods should be avoided. The knowledge isn't helping.
So if I have any resolutions for the new year, it is to finally develop the discipline I need and to stop sabotaging my own efforts.
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Date: 2009-01-13 02:15 am (UTC)I do understand about the self-sabotage. And the only thing I can think of to say is - keep trying different methods until you find something that works, that you can follow, that you can live with.
I will say this though - I fell into the trap of thinking that there were "bad foods" and used it as a stick to beat myself with for years. Now I don't think of any food as a "bad" food, so I can do what I would have previously called "cheating" or "falling off the wagon". Without using those terms, it was easier for me to actually lose weight.
A very good friend of mine once said "Remember, the scale reading is a number, not a value." No one's going to randomly pick you up to see how much you weigh - so it's less important, or should be, than how you actually feel when you look at your body which, from your post, seems really positive.
I shall stop rambling now at stupid oclock and get some sleep! But I meant to answer this post earlier and got sidetracked. :)