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I stayed up until after three in the morning yesterday/today.
Then went to bed, got up at half past seven. I had promised my Mom I'd meet her in the morning before she left for a meeting and I went to Leipzig. Dead tired.

Got up anyway, had breakfast with Mom, took dog for a short walk, went to Leipzig.
Drove around town center for like half an hour to find a parking spot. Finally managed (though I had to pay for it). Went to the library to return book. I thought they were overdue, but I was lucky. Would have been due tomorrow. Sometimes, my timing impresses me.

Had called M on the way from car to library, we had planned on meeting. He said he would get on his wayand we'd meet outside the library. So I waited there. And waited. And waited. And waited.
One and a half hours and ten trams he could have taken (and walking the distance takes only half an hour) later, I decided to give up. Tried to call him several times but no reply.
I'm stuck between being very worried and very furious.

Then went to my grandmother's. She isn't feeling well these days. And I am worried about her. All the medication she takes, and she always was a person to get depressed quickly, and she spends way too much time alone. I'm torn between thinking I do the best I can and thinking I don't do enough.
I bought her a flower today. She likes flowers and I thought it might cheer her up. She was really upset about me moving away, but there isn't anything I can do about it.
I started collecting things I want to send her, so she'll remember that people think of her. Just silly little stuff like photos I took or a cute postcard or something like that.
I just feel that I don't do enough to make her feel loved.

And I'm still tired, and I just feel as if this day sucked.