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dream_labyrinth) wrote2006-02-17 08:38 pm
dream_labyrinth) wrote2006-02-17 08:38 pm
Arghh!
Well. So yesterday I went shopping by car. Drove back up to the base and the car was acting up a bit again. Oh well, nothing out of the ordinary. So I unpacked at my home and then wanted to drive to my parking space. Unfortunately, as I was going round a corner, the engine died. So I was sitting right there in the middle of the road (fortunately, a little used road on the base), and couldn't go anywhere. Waited a few minutes, then started again and made it at least off the road.
Went to choir and to the last get-together of the infantry bataillon here before they're going to be disbanded (voc?).
Then the car did start again and I could drive to my parking space without problem. Today I took the car to Schweinfurt to a Mitsubishi dealer and told them what the problem was. And lo and behold, finally somebody at least knows what I am talking about. The guy said his father had had the same problem, and it was the distributor (could that be right? He showed me, it's the thing right next to the oil tank thingie. Yuck, I have so absolutely no idea about engines...)
Anyway, they can't test whether it's damaged there, they'd have to send it in which would take about a week to get back, and if it does get repaired, it'll be 250 Euros.
Yeah, sure.
So the plan is the following: I will drive this car this week and next (sorry,![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
linnapaw, we'll just have to hope for the best on Sunday and Monday), drive home with it and there it will STAY.
I'll sell it, I'm sick of it. I don't care whether Dad wants me to keep it until the next inspection is due. I am going to get myself a decent used car, which I can afford right now, and I currently have more money available than this car did cost when we bought it.
And then I will finally have a car again that is reliable. High time, too. The guys at Mitsubishi said I could either go for the repair work or drive the car as long as it'll go. So it isn't as if it's something life threatening, just really annoying. So I am pretty sure I will make it through another 10 days, and then we're done.
Funny how things suddenly work out.
In other news, Marco has been visiting. The guy I met way back when I started here and with whom I'd watch CSI every Monday night until he left the army last summer. Was nice to see him again.
What really sucks about me is my need for an audience. I can be in a really bad mood, tired, exhausted, but if there is an audience of lesser known people, I'll get in "show must go on" mode and be all funny and witty and cool. And hate them afterwards for making me do it instead of crawling into the hole I would have wanted to crawl. Stupid, I should rather be upset with myself. But then I am that a lot, too.
Also, this week I was totally tired of demands. It seemed that wherever I went, whatever I did, somebody was always there demanding something of me. Not only at work, but also in my spare time. Choir rehearsal, social events, when did you last go swimming, anyway, have you played the clarinet yet,... - and I am adding to that by telling myself what I need to do. Whatever task I see, it is mine to do and do it now and do it right, better than right, what do you mean, you didn't do it perfectly?
And then on Thursday, Tobias came in and told me how I had to take a break and it was all this "you have to, you got to, why don't you" all over again and I almost broke down right then and there because I couldn't stand it anymore.
And then there are the decisions. All the time you need to make decisions, and they usually are wrong or at least not right, there might have been a better way, and the one you chose didn't turn out quite the way you wanted it to.
And sometimes I just want to sit in a corner and have somebody else make decisions for me, for then at least I could blame them for things that don't work out. BUt it's all me, alway me, and nobody will do anything for me and I'm all alone with it.
And I hate decisions.
I guess that's what you call growing up.
wolflady26, I owe you an email. But there's been so much going on I simply had no time to really muster the concentration. I think you got a great idea there, we'll just have to decide on a weekend. And I might come by train... :-/
Went to choir and to the last get-together of the infantry bataillon here before they're going to be disbanded (voc?).
Then the car did start again and I could drive to my parking space without problem. Today I took the car to Schweinfurt to a Mitsubishi dealer and told them what the problem was. And lo and behold, finally somebody at least knows what I am talking about. The guy said his father had had the same problem, and it was the distributor (could that be right? He showed me, it's the thing right next to the oil tank thingie. Yuck, I have so absolutely no idea about engines...)
Anyway, they can't test whether it's damaged there, they'd have to send it in which would take about a week to get back, and if it does get repaired, it'll be 250 Euros.
Yeah, sure.
So the plan is the following: I will drive this car this week and next (sorry,
linnapaw, we'll just have to hope for the best on Sunday and Monday), drive home with it and there it will STAY.I'll sell it, I'm sick of it. I don't care whether Dad wants me to keep it until the next inspection is due. I am going to get myself a decent used car, which I can afford right now, and I currently have more money available than this car did cost when we bought it.
And then I will finally have a car again that is reliable. High time, too. The guys at Mitsubishi said I could either go for the repair work or drive the car as long as it'll go. So it isn't as if it's something life threatening, just really annoying. So I am pretty sure I will make it through another 10 days, and then we're done.
Funny how things suddenly work out.
In other news, Marco has been visiting. The guy I met way back when I started here and with whom I'd watch CSI every Monday night until he left the army last summer. Was nice to see him again.
What really sucks about me is my need for an audience. I can be in a really bad mood, tired, exhausted, but if there is an audience of lesser known people, I'll get in "show must go on" mode and be all funny and witty and cool. And hate them afterwards for making me do it instead of crawling into the hole I would have wanted to crawl. Stupid, I should rather be upset with myself. But then I am that a lot, too.
Also, this week I was totally tired of demands. It seemed that wherever I went, whatever I did, somebody was always there demanding something of me. Not only at work, but also in my spare time. Choir rehearsal, social events, when did you last go swimming, anyway, have you played the clarinet yet,... - and I am adding to that by telling myself what I need to do. Whatever task I see, it is mine to do and do it now and do it right, better than right, what do you mean, you didn't do it perfectly?
And then on Thursday, Tobias came in and told me how I had to take a break and it was all this "you have to, you got to, why don't you" all over again and I almost broke down right then and there because I couldn't stand it anymore.
And then there are the decisions. All the time you need to make decisions, and they usually are wrong or at least not right, there might have been a better way, and the one you chose didn't turn out quite the way you wanted it to.
And sometimes I just want to sit in a corner and have somebody else make decisions for me, for then at least I could blame them for things that don't work out. BUt it's all me, alway me, and nobody will do anything for me and I'm all alone with it.
And I hate decisions.
I guess that's what you call growing up.
wolflady26, I owe you an email. But there's been so much going on I simply had no time to really muster the concentration. I think you got a great idea there, we'll just have to decide on a weekend. And I might come by train... :-/