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Letter of application
Jun. 28th, 2004 10:09 amI saw an interesting job ad last week and decided to apply.
And now I know what I hate most: to write letters of application. I'm just not very good at this type of bragging. Don't get me wrong, I do brag - a lot, usually. But I don't usually write it down. And to tell a complete stranger that I am perfect for whatever they want, when somewhere deep inside I know I'm not makes me feel insecure. What happens if I mess up and they hold that letter in my face telling me 'you said you could do that!'
Yeah, I know I did. That was the only chance for me to get the job in the first place. But that doesn't mean it's true.
But I have to write all that stuff, because whoever reads these letters cuts out half of the bragging to come up with what the applicant truly knows. So if I write the truth, I'll end up as the absolute loser.
I asked a friend who is working in the same business whether she thought I could do that job. I worked with her during an internship, so she knows what I can and can't do. She encouraged me, but somebody else who knows the company told that it would most likely be a bad job - in a small town in the middle of nowhere, not much of a social life, far away from my hometown. It will also be a job with lots of responsibility. While it is great to work without having a boss look over your shoulder all the time, for someone who just starts working it might be better to have somebody you can ask for help.
I decided to send the application anyway. There will be time enough to panic if I actually get the job.
How's that for optimism?
And now I know what I hate most: to write letters of application. I'm just not very good at this type of bragging. Don't get me wrong, I do brag - a lot, usually. But I don't usually write it down. And to tell a complete stranger that I am perfect for whatever they want, when somewhere deep inside I know I'm not makes me feel insecure. What happens if I mess up and they hold that letter in my face telling me 'you said you could do that!'
Yeah, I know I did. That was the only chance for me to get the job in the first place. But that doesn't mean it's true.
But I have to write all that stuff, because whoever reads these letters cuts out half of the bragging to come up with what the applicant truly knows. So if I write the truth, I'll end up as the absolute loser.
I asked a friend who is working in the same business whether she thought I could do that job. I worked with her during an internship, so she knows what I can and can't do. She encouraged me, but somebody else who knows the company told that it would most likely be a bad job - in a small town in the middle of nowhere, not much of a social life, far away from my hometown. It will also be a job with lots of responsibility. While it is great to work without having a boss look over your shoulder all the time, for someone who just starts working it might be better to have somebody you can ask for help.
I decided to send the application anyway. There will be time enough to panic if I actually get the job.
How's that for optimism?
