ok, first off, thoughts of suicide= bad. baaaaad. got it? ok. next thing.
going to bed alone, and waking up alone can be a wonderful thing, as cheesy as that sounds. i'm engaged, and have been living with my fiance for almost 2 years now. i dont think i've had a decent night's sleep in those two years. i've slept on the couch a few times out of sheer despiration to get a few hours solid sleep. i love, LOVE, any chance i get to sprawl out on the bed in any position i want to, sleep through the entire night, and wake up right in the middle of the bed, even if im curled up in a ball and only really need one side.
don't be so hard on yourself, you're only, what, 22 years old if im doing the math right? you need to be dating- and just that. don't be worrying about wether this guy is the one, just go out and have a nice night out at dinner and a movie or something.
and let's get one thing straight: you dont have to love somebody more than yourself. when that happens, you forget the sense of who you are, and get lost in life. you need to find someone who loves YOU as you are.
(and yes, i hijacked your lj name and stuck you on my friends list, so i saw this post! *sticks tongue out*)
but really, if you dont want to talk to any of your friends or family about this, there are always people willing to listen. If you want to come bug me, please do. i've been in very lonely spots in my life before, and if anything, can just listen. i'm always online late night (here, i'm not sure what time that would be over there). you know my email address if all else fails.
whoa girly..
Date: 2004-07-13 11:00 pm (UTC)going to bed alone, and waking up alone can be a wonderful thing, as cheesy as that sounds. i'm engaged, and have been living with my fiance for almost 2 years now. i dont think i've had a decent night's sleep in those two years. i've slept on the couch a few times out of sheer despiration to get a few hours solid sleep. i love, LOVE, any chance i get to sprawl out on the bed in any position i want to, sleep through the entire night, and wake up right in the middle of the bed, even if im curled up in a ball and only really need one side.
don't be so hard on yourself, you're only, what, 22 years old if im doing the math right? you need to be dating- and just that. don't be worrying about wether this guy is the one, just go out and have a nice night out at dinner and a movie or something.
and let's get one thing straight: you dont have to love somebody more than yourself. when that happens, you forget the sense of who you are, and get lost in life. you need to find someone who loves YOU as you are.
(and yes, i hijacked your lj name and stuck you on my friends list, so i saw this post! *sticks tongue out*)
but really, if you dont want to talk to any of your friends or family about this, there are always people willing to listen. If you want to come bug me, please do. i've been in very lonely spots in my life before, and if anything, can just listen. i'm always online late night (here, i'm not sure what time that would be over there). you know my email address if all else fails.
cheer up hun. :-)
andrea